MY FIRST

I guess I have to introduce myself first before I lay out my daily rantings.

My name is Lollipop and I still don’t know where I come from, I am 12 weeks old. I wanted to start writing from the time I begun living but I still had not grown my fingers to type.

Life in here is okay. My mum has been good to me she feeds me well and anytime I need anything I just send out a signal and she somehow gives me what I want. In the first few weeks when I had started my life, she was naughty she feed me with some alcohol, I don’t blame her because don’t think she really knew that I existed.

The day she took the test and realised that I was living in her, I saw her reaction she was with Dad when the doctor told them they were going to have me. I remember mummy crying, I don’t know if they were tears of joy, or sadness. Dad asked her how she was feeling, she said she was confused but she loved me. Dad was also confused but he has always wanted to have me. Mum immediately stopped drinking and has been very disciplined. I know my mother does not smoke and the only smoke I used to inhale was probably from my Dad. However I am glad that he too has either stopped smoking or does not do it near my mum.

I don’t know what my parents think of me, this is always on my mind. The fact that they have kept me and not decided to abort me means that they want me. But wanting me is different from loving me. I keep wondering if when I come out they will love me and treat me like other babies and children I will find out there. I know I am their first and I believe they will be excited to have me.

I have only met one grandmother and she seems a little distant. She must be disappointed that my mum got me before she got married. All I know is Mum and Dad will get married and it will be soon. I am excited about this, I will get to attend my first wedding and it will be my parents’

I seem to have very many aunties, they are rally great aunties they don’t disturb my mum as they know that because of me I seem to have her hormones up and she will breakdown anytime she is irritated. I also have aunties who are my mum’s friend I keep hearing them ask my mum if she is carrying me because does not drink or smoke. My mum does not want to disclose this info yet, she is waiting for the right moment.

You are all probably wondering why almost all I have written is about my mum, the thing is she is the one I spend most of my days with. I see my Dad here and there but I am sure I will have more to write about tomorrow because I over heard mum on the phone talking to Dad about meeting this Evening.

I am feeling hungry right now I should alert my mum so that we go eat.

Thank you for reading….. Tomorrow I have more to say